Thursday, April 19, 2012

  1. What's in a weight, freakin everything that's what. Whether we want to acknowledge, believe or mention it that's just the way it is.

    From the time we come into this world it's all about weight! We are suppose to fit into that 'healthy category' from the time we arrive and if we don't there are immediately consequences.

    We are all humans and as a human we can be pretty damn ugly. And it doesn't matter whether we have been raised in a 'religious' family where our parents and community has drilled into us that being 'religious' is going to church every Sunday, reading our scriptures and saying our prayers. As soon as we leave our homes and our influences and are surrounded by our peers in school many of us leave behind everything our parents have tried to teach us...or do we?
    I have always told my children when they were being picked on at school or work or any where for that matter that the individuals tormenting them weren't taught to be better people, or their circumstances have caused them to be that way.
    Well I want to tell them right now that that is horse crap!! We are all sent into this world with a brain, we all feel, see and experience the same pains when someone says something hurtful.
    But where do the prejudices comes from, are we all born with that seed buried inside of us? Is it always there like a cancer just waiting for the opportunity to rear it's ugly head? And when mom or dad see someone over weight and make that seemingly innocent comment, or cast that look that seems to say 'Oh My Gosh' is that the fuel that causes that ugly seed to sprout?
    I firmly believe that the adversary is the source of all evil and prejudice is as evil as they come, but can a child in elementary school truely be evil??? I find that very hard to believe, rather; I have to believe that the child is sorely misguided by behaviors they see and hear or heaven forbid experience themselves in their home.
    Parents who act as though their children are above all others due to their beauty, talents or economical base need to close their pretty little eyes and like Matthew Mcconaughey said in 'A Time to Kill' "Until we learn to think with our hearts there will always be prejudice" So close your eyes ANYTIME you are being a total freakin idiot and judging ANYONE about ANYTHING whether it's their clothes, hair, vehicle, reputation, mistakes, family, IQ or YEAH their WEIGHT and pretend as if that judgment is being passed on YOU or your CHILD!!
    No one in this world NO ONE wants to be at the bottom of the pile, we don't WANT to be over weight, poor, homeless, addicts or any other negative experience that exists here on this blasted planet!
    Because of these judgments members of my family stuggle and it just quite frankly pisses me off.
    And it makes me even more angry that I can't seem to fix it!!
    I want to be angry at everyone that teased and tormented, that ignored and tolerated, and that simply turned away!! I want to say that they are assholes with no IQ and crappy parents who didn't teach them better. But in the end if I were to do that I would be no better then those who stipped away every single solitary ounce of confidence from one of the most loving caring people I know!!
    So I won't do that, instead I will beg for guidance from my Heavenly Father and pray that he'll forgive me for dropping the ball when I really needed to be the carrier!!